As I enter another weekend I wanted to blog about my plans, in the hopes that this "added accountability" will keep me motivated as I tackle recreating my home. My father and sister are visiting next week, so this is the full weekend I have to work on my home. I still have a table full of Christmas (I collected it from all our rooms so I could start wrapping and putting in boxes all at one time). I've got to get the bedrooms ready for guests. I've got to get new pillows. I've got to clean out the refrigerator in anticipation of cooking for a crowd. I've got to shampoo a few spots the dogs have become too "familiar" with, if you know what I mean. AND I've got lots of grading to do as the grading period comes to an end.
But I also need to mentally prepare myself for their visit-- I know since we've been going through such a rough time as a family, everyone seems to approach me with both pity and oft-unsolicited advice, and it just seems to make me feel more depressed. I really need to get myself to where I can keep myself on an even keel. I hope I can find some time to squeeze in some walking this weekend too-- it seems to keep my mood up.
Friday, January 9, 2009
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Why Recreate?
The name of this blog is Recreating Home... not like in recreation, but as in re- create, create anew, re-fresh. The past few years have been difficult. One major crisis after another, losing my mother to cancer, losing my mother in law to cancer, marriage issues, health issues, sanity issues.
As the year's progressed, I have fallen farther and farther from what is okay for me regarding my home, my body, and my life. For most of my years, I've felt great with what I have and how I look. I felt I had a beautiful home, beautifully decorated, and loved to entertain in it. I felt great about the friendships I had. Although I've always had a "large build," I felt sexy and in command at my weight of about 160.
But as struggles and tragedies piled up, I found myself "underwater"-- drowning in my depression and overwhelmed by my responsibilities. This year, I am determined to HEAL. In the process, I am determined to regain control of my home, my life, and my body. This will chronicle my journey.
As the year's progressed, I have fallen farther and farther from what is okay for me regarding my home, my body, and my life. For most of my years, I've felt great with what I have and how I look. I felt I had a beautiful home, beautifully decorated, and loved to entertain in it. I felt great about the friendships I had. Although I've always had a "large build," I felt sexy and in command at my weight of about 160.
But as struggles and tragedies piled up, I found myself "underwater"-- drowning in my depression and overwhelmed by my responsibilities. This year, I am determined to HEAL. In the process, I am determined to regain control of my home, my life, and my body. This will chronicle my journey.
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